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Starting Again, Again

Moving from Boston to Melbourne, broken relationship, a restart that never felt the same then on to another new life in Sydney.

This song captures the journey of a displaced soul (me) rebuilding their life in a new coastal city, moving from isolated disorientation to a healing, fleeting connection with a fellow traveler, the estranged wife. It ultimately embraces the bittersweet truth that "home" is not a physical place to stay forever, but a shifting collection of shared moments, friendships, and memories carried forward into the next beginning.

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And a single heavy coat

I'd left another in the apartment in Boston..

And a sky too big to name

People often say 'the sky is very big' when arriving in Australia.

I walked like I was borrowed

A profound sense of fragility, temporary existence, and a lack of true belonging or ownership over oneself.

Trying to answer to my name

My state of dissociation, identity loss, and emotional exhaustion

Like it knew my secret face

The moment of exposure, sudden recognition, and deep vulnerability.

And a little luck in the dirt

Hope, resilience, and survival found in the most humble, ordinary places

Laughing through the borrowed hours

Represents finding brief, stolen moments of joy and connection despite knowing that your time together is strictly limited or that hard times are bound to return

Help me fold the years in stills

Metaphor about freezing time, preserving memories, and trying to make sense of a life

I leave with what I can't keep

A paradox that speaks to the inevitability of emotional memory, the ghost of past relationships, and the realisation that the most impactful things in life are the ones we cannot physically hold onto.